January 2012
5 posts
I completely forgot about this blog.
November 2011
16 posts
Words cannot express how pissed off I am at pretty much everyone. Only if killing yourself were easy…I hate my life so much. I think it’s time to drop out and leave this place.
I have forgotten everything, yet I know everything. I have forgotten how to eat, yet I still make time to clean. I’ve almost forgotten how to breathe without you, yet I find time to cry. I still call your phone waiting for you to pick up. I put that last letter in the mailbox, hoping you receive it and write me back. I have forgotten how to sleep, but I still daydream about you. I lost my...
vinylreligion:
I swear some of my ‘friends’, are the worst people to have around when you are upset. They’re either never there for you, because getting high, drunk, or partying is more important. Or they have the worst people skills ever. Thankfully, a few of them are lovely human beings, who make time for me. Even if it’s a few seconds out of the day, it still means a lot in the end.
My eyes hurt from crying so hard. My head hurts from crying as well. I almost missed my fucking midterm exam. I fucked up my door. I miss my ex-boyfriend. I hate Tennessee. I’m barely eating. I just want to get out of here, and lay in bed with you all day long. I want to count your freckles, mess up your hair, and listen to you talk for hours. Even if it is in a hospital…
October 2011
26 posts
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I cannot hold it all in right now. I tried. I FUCKING TRIED. Tried to look past the fact that I’m hurting right now. It started killing me only on the inside, but now it’s killing me on the outside. I’m losing weight again, and I’m losing it pretty damn fast this time. I’m not eating as much as I should, or resting as much as I should. It’s finally catching up...
Today has been going pretty well so far. I have all of my homework done for the week (well most of it). I discovered I have an 3.5 gpa (thank god or someone). Oh, and I sat next to a very cute boy today. ;) So happy.
Stop trying to talk me all the damn time. I do not want you in my life anymore. I have told you millions of times to leave me alone and go away. Stop bringing up the ‘us’ that never fucking happened. I never told you I loved you, liked you, or even held your fucking hand. We WERE friends! That’s all. Fucking FRIENDS. What don’t you get? Now we’re no longer anything to...
Damn I miss you so fucking much right now. These Skype dates are not enough for me. I want you to hold me when I cry, not sshhh me over the computer. I would call you right now, but I’m sure you’re asleep.
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I hope that this works for me. I really fucking hope that this works for me. I have so much anger, sorrow, and excitement inside of me with no place to go. I want to scream, but I am mute. I want to cry, but I don’t have any tears left. I want to smile (not that horrid fake shit I put on all the time), but I forgot how to. I wish I could tell the truth, but I am a liar. I lie to hide the...